post finally..

heyy!

its been some time since my last post i know.. just that i have been so like.. busy.. studying.. and at times, trying to study.. really donwan to fail anything this time.. otherwise i cant go for camp thanks to the bleeding study camp.. seriously hope i dont have to go..

well, today friday, 29/4/05, exams officially start.. its gonna be like 2 and a half weeks till me next breather which is 17/5.. so long right? i oso have no idea why its so long.. last year like.. onne week already finsh.. i think its because of the practicals la..

anyway.. today was this the physics practical.. i came i saw i conquered.. hehe.. but i was really fortunate. haha.. we had to do 2 experiments.. each experiment, we were given 45 min before the swithch over.. the first question was like some reflection stuff.. that one take so long leh.. but xing4 hao3 i managed to get all my readings.. den, second one.. so easy.. the one with the nichrome wire and the jockey thingy.. finished it in 15 min.. so with the rest of the time, i finished the graph for the first one.. so *whew* lor. haha.. hope i can do well for it.. physics must get A1..

i think with God's help and DEVEN'S voice continually ringing in my this the head.. about this ohm's lah (law) the the woltemeter(voltmeter) and kansidaring(considering) some kind of this the marker is the one object will be no problem.. haha.. just hope i wont be thinking of.. "are you sleepingg are you sleepingg.." otherwise sure sent out for some kind of loud lauffter..

anyways.. its gonna be like crap for the next few weeks.. but i gotta keep on keepin on..

dear God,
need your help
i know you wont let me down
i know your love keeps me strong
i know your words are my sword
which will conquer anything..

father i will keep on spending time with you
nothing is gonna take us apart..
nothing in this world.

heyy

hey all!

Sat : CHURCH DAY!!! haha. its like, every week i am only looking forward to one day.. guess you prob know which one.. and this sat was no exception.. we had our weekly leaders meeting.. this week was like not so hot.. which is definitely good.. haha. and we had a really great time of prayer and stuff.. just realised that there are so many many things coming up this year.. alpha, camp and missions.. wow.. lots to ask GOD for.. so we better not stop asking for his favour ya?

den service.. it was great! and like God was moving in such a powerful way i felt.. but, although i really felt his presence and stuff, i din really get a touch by him.. or at least i dont think i got a touch from him..you know what i mean? yeah..i really dunno why.. perhaps it my own sin.. or maybe i aint doing what i should be.. i dunno. perhaps God DECIDED not to.. who am i to challenge him.

jesus dont pass me by
i need a touch from you right here right now
lord hear my cry, dont pass me by.
every time its something new..

never will i get enough of you.

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mon : same old day at school.. except that there was REW follow up.. which i attended with some others.. mr alis.. haha.. he really wha.. cause me to think about my faith.. he cause me to think about the interllectual side of it.. no doubt, some of it is just so.. Not proven and cant be proven.. but, are other faiths provable? haha.. i guess not.. thats why its called FATIH..

i guess i aint really i phillosophical person.. and some things that he said really wha.. CHIMonology... cannot understand somethings.. but after awhile can la.. call me slow or whatever la..

later, choo, chor, hec, gar and me.. we were like waiting for the rest of the school to end.. so we were just talking.. really admire gareth's.. not paiseh-ness.. yeah.. and it does work.. oh well i wanna try to be like that.. anw.. weng kin said one thing that really encouraged me.. he said.. "wha.. i dont like the way he just waits for questions.. 5 min here and there.. waste so much time.. i just want him to feed me MORE and MORE!" *hand gestures and all* haha.. mann.. i really love to see how new believers are just so hungry... keep the hunger going choo! haha..

today, chinese orals.. sian.. teacher say my reading.. mediocre.. my answering questions thing was badly organised.. haha.. i guess i need to practice that.. haha.. its so soon! i better seriously pass sia.. otherwise so waste time.. haha.. oh wells gtg..

[-ming-] jesus, please dont pass me by..

cell multiplication

Cell Mutiplication

painful yet, necessary.. without it, would there still be growth? without it, would there still be life?

it aint easy parting ways from friends who have became your life.. its never easy saying goodbye to people close to our heart. but what do we have to do? we have to step out of our "comfort zone" though we may not be physically close to our dearest friends, surely, we will still be one in spirit. this is what it means to step out of the "zone", to take the step of faith.. to walk in JESUS and trust him.. personally, i dunno how i am going to adapt ONCE AGAIN to a change.. i have gone through soooo many changes in cell. but this time, its like different. because, it was with this centralone, that i have grown so much in God.. that i have spent real time with.. that i have made decisions to be with them.. sacrificing time, training = sacrificing sailing life.. it aint easy like just leaving it.. but i guess.. if its God's will.. WHO AM I to question it..

i am the flower quickly fading,
here today and gone tomorrow,
the wave tossed in the ocean,
the vapour in the wind..

yet, i mean so much to God that he may excercise his will in my life.. i should be grateful that he has given me assurance that, he does this all to give me life to the fullest.

doing his will aint always easy.. but, i CHOOSE to.. i choose to do that which may please him.. i choose to give my life for him..

so guys and gals, this aint easy.. but, let take joy in doing this! it marks a new beginning; the beginning of another REVIVAL!

[-ming-] choose life, choose Jesus

rugby

wha.. on wednesday.. so irritating sia.. waste my time.. like go all the way to police acadamy.. den like rain.. -_-.. so like irritated.. waste like one WHOLE DAY.. den! make us go again today.. haha..

not that i dont like to watch.. but like today, supposed to go for CELL!!!! ): mannn.. so sad la..

but i am quite glad i went for the match.. it sorta stirred my thinking.. my memory.

last year, august in hayama, japan. it was my first ever overseas competition.. after so many missed oppurtunities.. went there, chun, stine,sherm,scott, jov, crystal.. we go there, full of expectations.. personal and from others.. high morale.. team spirit! it was gonna be good i told myself..

the thing that.. really really broke my heart was not the fact that i could have possibly beaten those to malaysians ( lost because of nerves) and gotten so much individual glory, it was the team racing.. i knew, i was not meant to sail.. but God had been so good to me and allowed me to.. however at the expense of chun.. sorry chun.. yeah.. we sailed.. wha! win the first 2 by the biggest margin possible.. 1,2,3,4.. WE WERE ON A ROLL!! but we had i long long wait till the finals.. so wait.. as we waited, hearts beat faster and faster.. i was not even sure i was going to sail.. but we did.. and.. we did NOT win.. we were broken! we knew we could have won.. it was perhaps a lousy jury ( by the way, i think the jury was biased) and like.. so sad.. i knew it was my last ever team race that day.. never again will i team race in opti.. i was so sad.. that night, i was crying.. crying.. i know you guys think i like quite ok about it.. but i guess, i had to keep the spirits up. captain wad.. what to do..

todays rugby, i felt a hint of the same kind of dissapointment.. like say.. 20% of it.. it was so sad seeing all of them.. in tears.. guys, you did really really well.. NEXT YEAR ITS OURS!!!

God will take care of us.. and our trophies.. yeah..

[ming] if there was no such thing as failure, would there be victory?

days of my life.....

heyy!

ok.. big thing.. i accepted the post as camp commandant... wh3eeee! i feel with each passing day, increasing joy in my decision.. but however, at this point, there is still abit of me which tells me.. "nah.. you aint good enough" i dunno.. i have always been like that.. lacking confidence.. i wish i had the same confidence as some others had.. anyways.. thanks shaun, shawn, abby, ray, ben lee, aaron and maybe some others.. who have been used by God to reassure me.. i really thank you guys.. steps, here i come! GOD, needin you more than ever..

today, did my 2.4! haha.. i think i did like 10.28.. just nice A.. whee! so long never get a.. finally.. haha.. but the whole of the rest of the day, so tired.. including now.. but i still got a english compo to do.. i dunno why i am still here writing..

to someone (you know who you are...) :

heyy.. i know you really are going through lots of problems.. i honestly say, i cant truely understand what you are going through.. i have never experienced what you have.. and i know i keep telling you to forgive.. forgive.. i am sorry.. but thats the only thing i can tell you.. i got no experience.. never seen anything like this on TV (jkjk) so like really dunno how to counsel you.. if you would let me, i will help you get counselling.. its no trouble.. just give me the "OK" and i will go K? i say i will always be here for you.. but.. i know i cant.. i dont even know you well.. but i know someone who is always at your heart.. knocking.. asking you to let him come in and soothe your hurts.. his name is Jesus! he will ALWAYS be there for you.. i mean always..

there is nothing to severe for him.
nothing he cant resolve.
all you gotta do is trust him
and problems will simply... dissolve.

take care sis.

days of my life.....

who am i - casting crowns

this song, its great.. and i am like so reassured of my identity in christ through this song. and i hope that all of ya'll will be touched by it.. dunno how to load song onto my blog.. someone teach me pls? ty..
Who Am I
by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

life...

life is good..

hi hi! a little time since my last post.. but nvm..

study cell on thurs! haha.. it was quite eventful.. like we all were there trying to do our work.. some trying harder than others.. hmm.. but nvm! yeah.. den shaun, andrea and myself were writing a song for CAMP! ( i just learnt today that it was call StEpS camp) yeah.. so excited for camp... so yeah.. but now, i cant remember the melody already.. but it was not that bad a song...

but! that was not the biggest thing.. the biggest thing was that..... jeanette asked me whether i would like to be the camp commandant... aiyo! thats like so hard a decision for me.. i mean.. i am not really comfortable with like talking infront of people as in like you know.. public speaking kind of thing.. it just aint mah thang.. younoewadamsayin? yea.. however.. the main factor is the time.. shi jian.. i noe its like i just gotta go for a few mettings here and there.. but its still like extra time lor.. and as it is, i really dont have much time.. so its like i was really like doubtful about it.. and i really dunno if i should.. and now, saturday going on to sunday, no decision.. but as the time goes by.. i realise what a real priveledge it is. like serving God as like the voice of the camp committe ( thats what jeanette called it) its really quite a priveledge..

also, GOD has really been speaking to me about stepping out of comfort zone.. perhaps this is the chance he is giving me! i dunno.. whatever it is, i just dont want to commit myself to it.. den dont turn up for the meetings and stuff.. that wont be too good

prayer : GOD! i know you are reading this.. hope you dont mind others hearing what i am saying to you.. God.. this commandant thing.. its GREAT! and lord i thank you so much for the oppurtunity offered to me! lord, if it is really your will, chinese o' levels.. and mid years, they dont mean nothing.. .. however lord, if it is my own personal desire for my own glory, den, cut it off from me.. let me have nothing to do with it lord.. i really dont know God.. lord, speak to me.. through others.. but lord, i wanna hear YOUR voice.. as in YOURS! haha.. pls.. thanks..
God, i lift this issue to your hands, make the best out of it.. in jesus name i pray.. amen.
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wells.. saturday! yay! i love sats.. megalife service was good.. and the sermon about christianity being a relationship and not a duty.. is something i have heard so much.. haha.. but paul, he said it so clearly.. now, i really understand what it means.. i hope that i can love GOD as much as he would like me to! haha.. ohoh! dale! you know, pastor "Beukie" as his teacher called him, asked for us to kneel as we prayed a simple prayer before the sermon.. haha.. den dale.. he kneel right.. den kneel like the face to the floor kind la.. den ah.. haha.. at the end of the prayer.. ! he was like stuck under the chair infront of him! HAHAHAHA.. could not get out..haha... den like was kneeling for 1 min more than anyone else.. haha.. super funny la.. dunno how he do that one.. crazy la dale.. haha..

area gathering.. 57 ppl.. GREAT! haha.. i was playing elec on stage.. hope i din do TOO bad a job.. haha.. (: so yeah.. felt the presence of God descend.. but i guess, i have not really learnt waht is meant to worship God, even when on stage... its different.. i try to close my eyes, i try to lift my hands.. but it just does not seem the same.. God.. pls help me K? haha..

LOVE.. who is you lover.. why do you love him/her/it.. why are you willing to sacrifice things for him/her.. me, my lover is GOD! jesus christ.. i love you sooo much.. i want to spend every moment with you.. i want to dwell and commune with you daily.. in your light.. with your might.. God.. i lay down my plans at your feet.. because lord.. all i want, is to, be closer to you! all i want is to please you.. even though sometimes your ways, i cannot understand.. i will never walk away because my future is in YOUR HANDS! running after you!

[-ming-] he is all i need, all i want.

a new bro..

HALLELUJAH!!!! PRAISE GOD!!! GREAT AND AWESOME IS HE WHO HEALS THE SICK AND MAKES THE LAME WALK AND CAUsES TO BLIND TO SEE AND SAVES MY FRIEND FROM ETERNAL CONDAMNATION!(not sure if its spelt like that)

whoo hooO! praise God..

ok.. bascially, wengkin has like been affirmed of a place in heaven! i am so so happy! even though i ain really close to him and all, i cant help but rejoice along with all the other angels up there *looks up* =D

to wengkin : heyy mann.. this is just so awesome.. you know, when this year started, and like you were asking us ( me and gar) about all those things, i knew something was happening.. i could feel that hunger in you.. so did gar.. i never expected it to be so soon.. oh wells.. GOD IS AWESOME.. you know, dont let the devil falter your steps towards God.. no doubt, you face some like bad habits.. but i assure you.. its something many many ppl have to face.. even me.. ok? so yeah.. keep the 50 cent attitude mann.. haha.. but keep your eyes on jesus.. for he will be your strength to conquer all obstacles..amen

class christian percentage has grown again..
found out that chor was already a christian.. but he does not go to church and stuff.

CHOR: talkative guy.. what you need now is a church boy.. so i think, anyone in class cell will be glad to bring you.. mine is at 430 in pasir ris.. far i know.. but meGalife totally rocks! haha.. ok..

one last person to adress.. daryl..
mann. i am so glad that you have been so passionate for God ever since your salvation.. keep on pressing on and praying for his gifts.. i will be praying for you for the gift of tongues.. but whether on not you get it, it does not mean whether you are more spiritual or not k? yeah.. i am so glad that you have been praying for hector.. i have too! and many others.. hector has no where to run! haha..

god.. thank you for all that you have been doing.. lord, it is not by our own skill whatsoever.. but it is by your grace that all this has been happening in my class.. i really thankyou and praise you.. and lord.. WE WANT MORE OF YOU!

[-ming-] run into his arms

nows the time!

heyy ya'll.

its been a few days.. yeah i know.. anw.. life has been alright these few days..
anything special? yeah.. i went to play soccer on sunday.. if thats special.. haha.. it was sooo slipery lor.. slip here and there.. the only great thing about it was that lui came! yay.. ahaha.. quite poor thing sia.. his leg kena "eaten" den swell.. will be praying for you mann..
soccer was quite refreshing la.. although was really tired that night..

hmm.. today, was REW follow up.. me, gar,bronson,quek,pip,ang followed hec, chor and choo to the follow up..and we had a.. OK session with alister chew.. although his jokes were.. slightly LAME.. it was ok.. one thing tho.. i had such a strong urge to help him answer the questions.. because like.. he go one round den never really answer.. nvm.. next week, i will try to help out more.. haha.. to choo and chor and ang, i hope you guys got your questions answered.. and if you got anymore, i will be more than glad to be of assistance.. haha..

to choo: if you are even going to read this.. i know so strongly the time is NOW!!! NOW!! NOW!!! salvation is here for you! i appologise for not helping you through it today.. but tmr.. no matter what, i will play my part in bringing you to christ.. prepare the way for a new brother!

GOD.. pls empower me to be a suitable like.. guide for weng kin, so that we may see another brother come to you.. God.. i am sory for not willing to be more daring as you would probably have prefered.. its tough God.. besides, i dont know him that well but then again god, you died for people you who killed you. so i guess, its no excuse for me. i knew it was time but i din do anything.. really sorry God.. tmr will be the time!

personally, i am really needing discipline.. like right now, instead of blogging, i should be studying.. i really gotta do well this year. failure is not an option.
apart from that, i need more boldness. as like leader of class cell, i think i should be more daring to like speak up and stuff.. even if its not like what i would normally do.. its so sad.. i wish i had the gift of preaching.. or at least sharing.. haha..oh wells.. hope god gives it to me (:

well.. this song has been ministering to me alot this past few days. its so meaningful yet simple.. hope God speaks to you through the lyrics too..

WHEN GOD RAN

Almighty God, the great I Am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior commanding King of kings, mighty Conqueror

(chorus)
And the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run
Is when He ran to me, took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said my son's come home again
Looked at my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice he said son, do you know I still love you
It caught me by surprise, brought me to my knees
When God ran

The day I left home, I knew I had broken his heart
I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night, I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see

(chorus)
I saw Him run to me
It caught me by surprise
Brought me to my knees
When God ran