life...

life is good..

hi hi! a little time since my last post.. but nvm..

study cell on thurs! haha.. it was quite eventful.. like we all were there trying to do our work.. some trying harder than others.. hmm.. but nvm! yeah.. den shaun, andrea and myself were writing a song for CAMP! ( i just learnt today that it was call StEpS camp) yeah.. so excited for camp... so yeah.. but now, i cant remember the melody already.. but it was not that bad a song...

but! that was not the biggest thing.. the biggest thing was that..... jeanette asked me whether i would like to be the camp commandant... aiyo! thats like so hard a decision for me.. i mean.. i am not really comfortable with like talking infront of people as in like you know.. public speaking kind of thing.. it just aint mah thang.. younoewadamsayin? yea.. however.. the main factor is the time.. shi jian.. i noe its like i just gotta go for a few mettings here and there.. but its still like extra time lor.. and as it is, i really dont have much time.. so its like i was really like doubtful about it.. and i really dunno if i should.. and now, saturday going on to sunday, no decision.. but as the time goes by.. i realise what a real priveledge it is. like serving God as like the voice of the camp committe ( thats what jeanette called it) its really quite a priveledge..

also, GOD has really been speaking to me about stepping out of comfort zone.. perhaps this is the chance he is giving me! i dunno.. whatever it is, i just dont want to commit myself to it.. den dont turn up for the meetings and stuff.. that wont be too good

prayer : GOD! i know you are reading this.. hope you dont mind others hearing what i am saying to you.. God.. this commandant thing.. its GREAT! and lord i thank you so much for the oppurtunity offered to me! lord, if it is really your will, chinese o' levels.. and mid years, they dont mean nothing.. .. however lord, if it is my own personal desire for my own glory, den, cut it off from me.. let me have nothing to do with it lord.. i really dont know God.. lord, speak to me.. through others.. but lord, i wanna hear YOUR voice.. as in YOURS! haha.. pls.. thanks..
God, i lift this issue to your hands, make the best out of it.. in jesus name i pray.. amen.
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wells.. saturday! yay! i love sats.. megalife service was good.. and the sermon about christianity being a relationship and not a duty.. is something i have heard so much.. haha.. but paul, he said it so clearly.. now, i really understand what it means.. i hope that i can love GOD as much as he would like me to! haha.. ohoh! dale! you know, pastor "Beukie" as his teacher called him, asked for us to kneel as we prayed a simple prayer before the sermon.. haha.. den dale.. he kneel right.. den kneel like the face to the floor kind la.. den ah.. haha.. at the end of the prayer.. ! he was like stuck under the chair infront of him! HAHAHAHA.. could not get out..haha... den like was kneeling for 1 min more than anyone else.. haha.. super funny la.. dunno how he do that one.. crazy la dale.. haha..

area gathering.. 57 ppl.. GREAT! haha.. i was playing elec on stage.. hope i din do TOO bad a job.. haha.. (: so yeah.. felt the presence of God descend.. but i guess, i have not really learnt waht is meant to worship God, even when on stage... its different.. i try to close my eyes, i try to lift my hands.. but it just does not seem the same.. God.. pls help me K? haha..

LOVE.. who is you lover.. why do you love him/her/it.. why are you willing to sacrifice things for him/her.. me, my lover is GOD! jesus christ.. i love you sooo much.. i want to spend every moment with you.. i want to dwell and commune with you daily.. in your light.. with your might.. God.. i lay down my plans at your feet.. because lord.. all i want, is to, be closer to you! all i want is to please you.. even though sometimes your ways, i cannot understand.. i will never walk away because my future is in YOUR HANDS! running after you!

[-ming-] he is all i need, all i want.