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WEDNESDAY:
interclass soccer.. so sad ): din get through.. i think its becuase like alot of our guys were really nervous and like could not really focus.. like choo say.. "usually when play soccer my wrist will be relaxed den my hand can hang loose.. but inter-class time wha it was so tense.." so ya.. personally.. i dunno whether i really played as good as they say.. they say i like neutralised farlhy(not sure if its this spelling) buthe like scored 3 goals la.. but i guess it was not really my fault.. but i think i could have been more alert.. so saddening sia.. nvm guys! we know we can kick any other classes butt anytime.. haha..

thurs:
gosh.. today was like so ummm.. uneventful except for emath period.. hahah..
everyone was like going play. pause. volume up. haha.. ok.. because like our e math teacher, mr paul foo has a habit of like staring and standing still when he aint happy about something.. no idea why.. so like elyas la.. start the whole thing.. it was sorta funny at first but den, i think it Got sorta out of hand.. like i think guys, 4.5 , we should seriously get serious.. i mean like mid years are so close.. den soon it will be prelims den o's.. its really very fast.. we dont have time to keep make paul foo stare.. really guys.. dont let a moments fun ruin your future.. if every one in class just takes one minute to crack a joke or something, the lesson will be over already.. yeah... so we should really get focused right.. gotta admit, i was like going "play, pause" whatever and i admit i was laughing like crap during hector's wise comment.. hmmm.. ya.. but i think like it aint good la.. i shall try to like be more disciplined..

till next time..
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safyc/nsrcc regatta

ok. what can i say about this weekend. hmm.. i cant believe i gave up megalife for this.. haiz.

why it sucked :

(1) because i suck.. haha.. weird but true la.. not enough training.. argh.. everyone is getting so pro and so fit.. i better catch up sia.. looks like once a week trng is not quite enough.. guess i was a little cocky and stuff. but its not too late.. main goal.. inter-schools.. get top 5.. den at least can like get some credit to help in case i need to appeal.. ok.. getting out of point but.. ya.. who cares.. this is MY blog.. haha.

(2) BAD WEATHER. day 1. launch at 11.. this were alright.. wind just a little too strong for my liking.. but nvm.. need the excercise anyway. so ok.. ya.. hike hike.. still ok.. den storm came from behind us wind change 180 degrees and blah.. wait wait.. fortunately they "wise" enough to not hold race and wait for it to shift back.. ( i think its uncle tony's brains). so ok.. first 2 races were alright.. den another storm came! siao right.. it hit like when we were gonna finish the race.. and like on our last leg we were on close haul.. and there were major lulls and gusts.. and katja beat me at the last part because i was in a lull and she was in a gust.. haha..

second day.. conditions were the same.. haha... storm was approaching again.. and i was like doing all my predictions stuff.. the clouds were going in all different directions.. but.. funny.. the wind never shift! haha.. so funny sia.. what wrong with me.. next time better keep my mouth shut... so sail. sail.. den i think.. second race, got major storm la.. wind shifted around 10- 20 degrees i think.. ( no compass tho) haha.. so i lost out quite abit.. funny thing was that i predicted it.. but dunno why din do anything about it.. yupp den.. when the rain hit, it was practically blind leading the blind.. could not see.. and the rain drops were hitting my sun-burned skin like freaking darts la.. pain like dunno what. so like cold and pain .. den i was like telling mark.. "sure abandon one la.. cant even see where we need to go sail what?!" den guess what.. they din abandon.. could have protested them for holding races in foul weather.. but shall not waste my time la..

(3) committee din do such a good job on the courses on the last day.. like.. it was those kind of one tack upwinds.. see who can saiol faster kind of race.. no tactics or whatever involved.. ya.. and start lines were screwy... like port so biased that when on starboard, practically parallel la.. haha.. den like chaos.. everybody whacking each others boat.. siao la.. i settled for a lau sai start.. oh wells...

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anyway.. sometimes i wonder.. whether i should continue sailing.. it seems like this candle is dying and i just keep trying to keep it going.. i really actually do like sailing still.. but i dunno.. like its just dying. no drive to perform.. only drive is so that it will help me go to the school i want to.. thats not how it should be.. i wish that passion was restored.. i pray that all the hours i have spent and that others have spent on me would not just go to waste.. its such a waste if i just quit.. sometimes i feel like just quiting everything and serving God full time.. but i dont know if its just because i dont like school and stuff or because i really really want to serve God... i dunno.. that just shows how little i know myself.. so strange right.. haiz..

nvmm... just trust God & see where he leads me.. its all going to be for the better.. see ya in heaven God.. (: cant wait.. but hope to pull along more ppl with me.. it just may be you !

today.

today! it was good. generally.

today actually started bad.. woke up a little late. den wha early in the morning must rush rush.. not very nice.. needed to be in school at 7 for class cell. left home at like 6.45 thanks to my dad who was really "fast" in getting ready. reach like 715... amazingly enough... so late.. sorry guys..oh yes.. i did not eat breakfast and recess was like so late.. fortunately managed to grab something before PE.

den.. same old same old school.. nothing special.. just that chawan mushi ran out so fast today! i din manage to eat.. hope tmr can la.. haha... funny cows combo of mee kia and chawan.. so weird sia.. he always say like... very yummy la! haha.. ok.. fried food day.. ate 4 xiao zi.. haha... altogether.. but all like not really hot.. haiya.. ok..

after school got inter class soccer. haha.. ok lor.. beat 4.15 2-0, elyas and wengkin score.. haha.. elyas never wear underwear oso can play so good.. current top scorrer sia.. haha... only played one half.. haha.. but its ok.. not really doing well.. but today our defence sorta screw up.. as in never talk.. need to communicate.. haha... den after 2 matches.. started to drizzle.. den all the slacker prefects.. wanna faster zhao home.. den call it off and postpone.. den in the end the ground was like rather dry la.. den like so cloudy and cool.. in the end just stay back play soccer lor.. haha...

anyway.. nothing has really been on my mind today.. except that my butt hurts.. abrasions suck.. or rather.. hurt.. hai.. nvm.. tmr can liao.. but tmr not gonna play soccer.. dun wanna stink up the whole cinema.. haha.. right.. ok.. chao..

thought for the day: with God being so big.. why should we try to be?

Synergiz

FINALLY... haha.. ok.. let just get down to it...

Synergiz.. hey hey! jump around! how awesome is our God huh.. man.. i tell you all! picture this..

this is what i see everytime i close my eyes now..

there are people everywhere. the smell of prespiration is like killing me. but i dont care. i stay in the crowd. we look up. flashing lights.. blue, green, yellow and purple.. flashing around.. the green light shines on me and then quickly passes away. leaving me a little blinded. suddenly, i hear screams of some insane ppl(by the way.. thats a good thing!) more shouting... more lights.. the sounds of instruments playing.. crashes crashing, guitars... diaoowaowao-ing, bass digedi digedi dommm.... piano/synti (cant hear...) but the dude is hitting the keys... more screams as we welcome the guest of honour.. we all feel his presence descend.. then, as my eyes were closed and i was exalting the king, i felt the ground shaking.. bom...... bom..... bom.. i open my eyes, hands are raised.. ppl are jumping.. rhythmically.. i could hear clapping... and cheering.. the hands, pointing to the skies.. hear a shout of praise... everyones excited, everyone is in ecstacy... all with a common motive.. to worship our God..

i believe, there was a true real desire to touch God's heart.. i'm not just saying it.. its true.. although there were those that you know.. less enthusiastic..but.. there was still that same mission.. so touch God.. and let him touch us.

personally, this conference was about surrendering.. in the past, i had tried to surrender.. i thought i succeeded but.. not so... so once again.. i wanna surrender my life to GOD.. to the mister God.. and i juz wanna let him be IN CONTROL of me.. its true.. thats my hearts desire... to know him more personally..

before the conference, i had realised that i loved God.. i really did, with all my heart i Did.. sort of.. but i did love him. and i would worship him, i would do my quiet time occasionallly. but about 3 times a week? average. so ok. i was telling everyone when i could.. oh god loves you.. God loves you God loves you.. oh i love God i love God i love Jesus.. its all true dont you think? but i realised, that although i loved him, i did not know him.. ( thats the reson for the msn nick " you love me but you dont know who i am") i prayed for the class cell, i prayed for revival.. but, i did not know what he wanted me to do.. and at this, i was like.. oh mah gosh. what am i doing? i was running for God.. but i did not know which way he wanted me to run.. so ok.. slow things down a little.. dont wanna go too far in the wrong direction. so.. ok.. seek his face, seek his will whatever. i keep asking him to speak to me speak to me.. but, nothing.. thats when i started feeling dry. i thirsted for God.. i did. but nothing..

so then came along james singh.. annointed i tell you.. he is a true "FIREman".. ahaha. no offence of course. he said.. Gods word IS God's word for us.. sounds obvious but, my eyes brightened... how could i have been so blind.. all this while.. God had been speaking through me.. all i had to do was to try and find it! so nice to find somemore got that "easy flip" thing to help find the books.. haha.. so ok.. i will read his word like i have never before.. everyday.. i will read and read.. ho ho.. he has so much to say to me.. haha.. shoik man..

i realised one thing.. quiet time is not just done when you are quiet.. you know what i mean? i mean like.. we should be like seeking Gods will all the time! like even in free period.. class is havoc.. seek him.. seek him in the train, when you are like just hanging out.. seek him! and Gods annointing will be on you.. i mean.. i dont know about you but i want Gods annointing on my life.

one thing i discoverd about worship.. haha.. its sounds lame yet make sense so pay attention.. when we worship.. God smiles upon us right? he is like.. "yes yes.. this is good!" haha.. den what should we do in reply? be polite and smile back! i mean.. dun everytime worship oso frown frown.. den eyebrows like cringed up.. smile and exalt him! yeah..

thats it.

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