actually, i dunno what to post.. camp is coming soon!! hope you guys are as excited as i am.. (8 its gonna be really awesome.. then again.. thats what they say every year.. and every year just seem to be great.. so i guess. its gonna be great. haha.. ok. umm..

last night, i watched this show called "the beach" and leonardo di ____ (fill in the blanks) said something rather... umm.. true. haha.. quote "when you are infatuated with someone, you find reasons to love him/her and even if the reasons are not great, still you find yourself more and more in love" i never thought of it that way...

anyway.. chi o's are like in.. LESS THAN 24 hours.. *heart jumps*

to God:
i long to worship you in a way that you will truly love ;
with a pure heart, a broken spirit, a deep desire to know you more.
all i want is to minister unto YOUR beautiful heart, to hear you say the words i long to hear.
i will shout unto You, make your praises loud.
The enemy has been Defeated!
no longer am i in the bondage of sin.
no longer am i that of the world.
No longer am i with guilt for LOVE WAS CRUCIFIED.
love paid the price for the moment such as this.
the moment of freedom.
I WILL PRAISE YOU for all that its worth.
nothing can hold me down..
with you by my side, is there anything to difficult?
is there any part of my evil nature that can overcome Your nature in me?
when i look into the mirror, i wanna see a greater resemblence to you with each passing day.
for your spirit is birthing within me a GOD song, that says, "holy is the LORD."
and i want to be holy. i want to be like you..
i dont want to be you. i just want to have a portion of your love for people.
a portion of your charm that has won over my heart.
a portion of your holiness.
a portion of your grace.
the WHOLE of your cross. i want to take up the cross.
i want to do all that it takes to bring one more in for you.
i want to be so PASSIONATE about your commission.
right now i can feel the fire of passion in me.
fan this flame oh LORD.
do not let it extinguish.


all for love.united live.look to you.

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucfied

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Drawn near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

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ok. well i was actually gonna post about my failure and stuff but. mind changed. simply cuz its all in God's hands. i believe, victory will come.

i got 25 points. its horrendous. i was actually targeting like 10. but nvm. i think this is a great leson for me.

to those who did badly, fret not. it seems that everything does not work out but, you just gotta place your trust in God and keep working hard.

i just hope that all who read this will keep me in prayer cuz the study camp that i have to go for clashes with the steps camp. sad. God pls grant me this desire.

pray for me k?

i am really like distracted and all by this and chi exams coming.. haha.

well.. i am back to trng.. its been sorta tiring. yeah. so quite tired. sailing byte quite jia lat sia.. sometimes i really miss opti. like. so much "slacker" in a sense. yeah.. sorta miss like the opti squad and all but oh wells..

anyway.. so sorry caroline.. cant go for your party (that reminds me i need to tell stine) yeah.. got some stuff on.. busy busy.. ah wells. gotta get my priorities right..

ok.. umm today, there was the alpha dedication service.. for me i felt, there is a GENERAL wanting for God to move in the alpha and stuff.. i mean.. its sorta NORMAL to want that right? but i feel what was lacking was the DESPARATION. even for myself. i was not as desperate as i would like to be. wells. i invited wen long and bryan.. both for different but similar reasons. bryan : i feel that you have so much "potential" to get into a even DEEPER relationship with Christ. so i asked you to come for this to assist you in this..
wen long: hai you are.. backslide sorta.. haha.. so just hoping that you will reconcile your relationship with jesus the one and only.. will be praying hard for the both of you..

alpha starts tmr. i urge everyone to come EXPECTING God to do something wonderful in your life.. come with the "GOD I WANT MORE OF YOU" attitude.. tmr, there will be power..

you know, there was something that really struck me just now in the prayer meeting.. but i just CANT remember.. hai.. * thinks* haiseh.. cant remember.. nvm. if its really important enough, i will remember.. stm la me.. hees..

ok thats it.

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firstly, i would like to say a HUGE happy birthday to our dearest shaun.. thanks for making a difference in my life.. i pray that as you turn a year older, God will be with you and always be by your side.. i pray that God's blessings and stuff be upon you.. now and forever.. amen..

ok.. somehow that sounded really "benediction-ary".. nvm.. Go shaun!

wells, service was GREAT.. everyweek its like.. a refreshing touch of God's hand.. i like what PJ say.. " don't be satisfied with yesterday's glory" basically means that.. even if we Got touched by God just yesterday, we should ask for a NEW and FRESH touch.. everyday being filled by him is like.. being becoming a new christian all together.. its like sometimes.. feel so reborn.. feel so.. baby.. cuz i realise.. how small i am and how BIG God is.. so thankful to know that i am being protected 24/7.. this is not weakness.. this is sagacity.. dont be afraid to lean on God, he wont let you fall..

anyway.. on fri, went with eli, her bros, aza, abelle and aaron to pasir ris park.. reached there like 1030.. at night.. aaron lor.. so slow.. nvm.. haha.. it was fun (: and i was a bisexual for a few mins.. haha.. aaron runs faster than me.. thats what i found out.. haha..

anyway.. exams are nearly over; geog paper one left.. haha.. slack.. hope i do well.. thank God its over.. but still left chi o's.. to all those taking it, lets study together! haha.. okies..

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love makes the world go round.

heyy.. this one is from manyi's friendster blog.btw, never knew you were a christian. wells now i know right?.. hees.. keep growing in God yeah? if you happen to see this, hope you dont mind.. anyway.. think its really nice.. so yea..


It's amazing and incredible,

but it's as true as it can be-

God loves and understands us all,

and that means you and me.

His grace is all-sufficient

for both the young and old,

For the lonely and the timid

,for the brash and for the bold.

His love knows no exceptions,

so never feel excluded-

No matter who or what you are,

your name has been included.

And no matter what your past has been,

trust God to understand.

And no matter what your problem is,

just place it in His hand.

For in all of our unloveliness

this great God loves us still-

He loved us since the world began,

and, what's more, He always will!

~Helen Steiner Rice~

Therefore, since we are justified by faith,we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.Through him we have obtained access to this gracein which we stand, and we rejoice in our hope ofsharing the glory of God.(Romans 5: 1-2)

exams

aiyo.. exams.. still for about 10 more days.. yeah.. 17 of may.. i cant wait for you!

i think, i just failed my amath paper, screw.. its like.. i know how to do question.. for some reason just cant rmbr the formula.. dunno why.. hai.. dalwinther's good luck was not much help.. perhaps cause it was not really warm hearted.. cuz she always so cold (winter) haha.. okok..

i got paper two to salvage the situation.. GOD you GOTTA help..

there will be miracles when you believe.

I BELIVE! god you are awesome, almighty and.. unpredictable sometimes.. haha.. so .. pls PLEASANTLY surprise me.. anyway.. i know its all for my own good whatever you do.

today, 7th may 2005 MeGaLifE service was GREAT.. it was really special.. well worship was really great.. even though we din have the praise song to get hyped up about.. but, the god presence-ness was enough.. i felt really.. moved.. its been along time since i last came back to God about surrendering stuff.. and today was it... the last time was probably the eXtreme camp..
we din have a sermon as expected.. PJ felt led by God to have a time of ministry and worship.. totally impromptu..
it was like.. everyone of us is so so loved by God.. no matter how young, how old how clever or stupid.. whatever.. everyone was so crucial and important to God that.. he will send his spirit to touch and heal our hurts.. to give us warmth.. to bring us back to him...

talking to God takes no breath
walking with God takes no energy
touching God's heart takes no umm. stretch?
loving God takes no time
but i want to do it with all that i am.

okok.. well this song by avril really got me hooked.. haha.. its call freak out.

"Freak Out"

Try to tell me what I shouldn't do
You should know by now,
I won't listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go

You don't always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
And put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air
Like you don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my lifeI
can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

On my own
Let it go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Just let me live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

Gonna freak out, let it go
Gonna freak out, let it go